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I forgot how to breathe;
just sharp and fast and then not at all.
The late-night sun lit up the world and I was falling.
I tell people I’m broken too much, I think.
I tell people I don’t know and I don’t know,
really.
I never seem to know.
Right now,
right where the dark comes behind the screen and
the window and where the music is just guitar...
Right now...
I want my father.
I want those ancient times when I was small enough to be picked up.
I want those arms around me again;
heavy forearms and biceps with an easy hand on my leg.
I want the feel of his heartbeat,
and the touch of his fingers in my hair.
There was a time when he was protector,
he was my god.
His word and voice were golden.
He could just hold me close,
I was small and cared there.
I was his little girl with her tricycle,
I watched him put the box on the back and rode around.
I plucked at his guitars with my little fingers.
I touched his face with my palm and grinned at him,
missing teeth and little lips.
I did not know the world then;
it was new.
I spilled a cup of honey across the floor in a sticky mess,
and he yelled at me and I cried until he wiped those tears away;
his large fingers on my small face.
He cried in the basement when he thought no one was looking,
and I said his name, soft and low.
“Daddy?” I said.
I knew something was wrong.
He held me close,
I was his little girl.
I am his little girl.
He tucked me close and I felt him sob against me.
Pick me up again, won’t you?
Daddy... I don’t want to grow up.
I want to be unknowing,
Won’t you smile again at me?
Play me your guitar and put me to sleep?
Dad...
just sharp and fast and then not at all.
The late-night sun lit up the world and I was falling.
I tell people I’m broken too much, I think.
I tell people I don’t know and I don’t know,
really.
I never seem to know.
Right now,
right where the dark comes behind the screen and
the window and where the music is just guitar...
Right now...
I want my father.
I want those ancient times when I was small enough to be picked up.
I want those arms around me again;
heavy forearms and biceps with an easy hand on my leg.
I want the feel of his heartbeat,
and the touch of his fingers in my hair.
There was a time when he was protector,
he was my god.
His word and voice were golden.
He could just hold me close,
I was small and cared there.
I was his little girl with her tricycle,
I watched him put the box on the back and rode around.
I plucked at his guitars with my little fingers.
I touched his face with my palm and grinned at him,
missing teeth and little lips.
I did not know the world then;
it was new.
I spilled a cup of honey across the floor in a sticky mess,
and he yelled at me and I cried until he wiped those tears away;
his large fingers on my small face.
He cried in the basement when he thought no one was looking,
and I said his name, soft and low.
“Daddy?” I said.
I knew something was wrong.
He held me close,
I was his little girl.
I am his little girl.
He tucked me close and I felt him sob against me.
Pick me up again, won’t you?
Daddy... I don’t want to grow up.
I want to be unknowing,
Won’t you smile again at me?
Play me your guitar and put me to sleep?
Dad...
Perhaps it explains itself.
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